Thursday, October 16, 2008

I write to understand ...

....random ridiculous rambling
As an illusory image portrayal of moving changing light in which one can be engaged i feel as though it has successfully evoked a particular feeling/emotion.... And not one that was far from the original intention... Ceci n'est pas un Rorschach card..... interest lies in giving viewers an experience... giving them a fictional experience where the extraneous details are left out, you dont know the characters or their circumstance ... each one is to ground it -being what they are seeing- in perhaps a memory they have of a situation in which a similar feeling/emotion was felt or one in which they could sympathize... perhaps giving visual cues or stimulus to trigger a response for the mind to body etc to feel... engaging an inner dialogue/thought...we are empathic beings... (is that why i apologize to walls when i bump into them? )...

....inner insane insight
in terms of the medium ... video ... a very detached participation... you do not control how you see what you are looking at or from what angle... you cannot walk around it and see how it was glued soldered nail gunned and welded to make it stand ... the viewer is forced to see visually from my perspective of this false environment.... it is interesting because from the time it starts and then finishes, the viewer has lost their time to experience something physical... it is interesting to watch someone watch something ...especially when they are interested... and even when you yourself experience that... and time just slips away (see flow theory) ... time... the essence of video... which you are no longer aware of ...

...hmmm
the idea of a video and the process of watching it and that physical detachment but yet inner attachment in which you become what you are watching is really interesting... its weird i feel as if people can feel like they are in what ever they are seeing or perhaps mentally become a apart of this environment ... flow- maybe because of their intense energy focused at this thing -is achieved... perhaps ... unaware of body and surrounding ....

its a paradox .. because i really like materials and things.. and want to incorporate the two... especially if they have this relationship where one is dependent on the other and the experience is contingent on two parts working together... so eventually .. but i dont want to force too many things together .. and just start projecting on everything just because i can ... or maybe i do ?